Passing it on

So I went to the Social Justice Conference this weekend and I actually really enjoyed it. We got to pick with workshops we wanted to go to, and I chose AIDS, God's hidden passions and one on slavery. 

I wasn't sure what to expect going into the conference, except a day of workshops dealing with some pretty tough subjects. But what I gained from the conference I think I will hold on to. I have always had a passion for working with girls and women affected by sex crimes, but I always focused my attention on sex crimes within North America. But when I heard of children and girls being sold into prostitution all over the world, it broke my heart. And if it broke my heart, it makes me wonder just how much it hurts God. 

In the workshop on Slavery, we talked about the sex trade, and watched a very disturbing movie called Mudan's Field. Very hard movie to watch. In summary, a little girl is sold to a brothel and the movie is about her eventual rape and how she copes with being sold. It is brutal to watch. I was sobbing by the end of the movie. I was so angry and torn up. And again, if I am angry, how angry is God? It's his little child, being brutalized and raped. 

It made me want to do something. It made me want to ride to the rescue and save little girls like Mudan. But since I can't, the most I can do now is pass on this story and that it does happen. If you can take watching a very disturbing movie that will most likely enrage you, and show you one thing that few people think about, but what most be on God's mind all the time. Watch it. Watch it and pass on that this does happen, and that it needs to be put to an end. 

Loneliness

Have you ever really stopped to think about the concept of loneliness? 

The complete and utter silence that it is. 

No still small voice. 

No whispers in the dark. 

No laughter of friends. 

Just complete silence. 

I know in my life I have had moments where I have felt utterly alone. I have felt the silence begin to creep up on me, like a sheet that is going to take my last breath. I have been deafened to the whispers and the laughter. But, I will never truly be alone. 

One thing that I find so awesome and comforting about being a Christian is simply knowing that God is there for me. That he watches me and knows me better than I know myself. That he has me in his hands and cradles me to him when the silence creeps up on me. That he cares enough to whisper "I am here, you are not alone." God is our rescuer from that silence, that deafening silence that can smother some of us if we let it. I can't imagine the hope that would be taken from me if I didn't know deep inside that I am not alone. I can't imagine not knowing that God cares for me no matter what, even when you have no one else. I don't know how anyone can survive without that hope. But thankfully he gives me the hope to break from that silence and realize how lucky I am to have what I have. How lucky I am to have a God that cares about me so much that he would die so I might live. It's simply mindblowing...

Introduction to me

So if there is anyone out there who is reading this and is thinking: "Just who is this Ellen person?", here's a bit of random info about me. 

- I love pickles...when some girls go for chocolate, I go for pickles.

- I am a huge bookworm...anything from classics, to fantasy to science fiction, I love it 

- I love lyrics...when I listen to a song, its for the lyrics, not the beat

- I am obsessed with learning about what makes people tick. I love to read body language and to guess what things different people have dealt with (or haven't dealt with) in their lives. 

- the above statement includes people watching...I guess I am now officially a creeper. 

- I think that hope is the greatest thing a person can take into life and its uncertanties. Without hope, what chance do you have of facing them? 

- I love tv shows. Some of my favorites include: One Tree Hill, Lost, Grey's Anatomy, Criminal Minds, and Gilmore Girls. 

- I am a cat person. I love dogs, but given the choice, I would take a cat. They are so human.

- I love poetry and the way it flows and makes words come to life. I have three published poems. 

- I am a psychology student, hoping to go on to get my Ph.D in Abnormal Psychology specializing in adolescents. 

- I just took up like 2 minutes of your time as you read random facts about me :P 

 

So there you have it. Me, in a very small nutshell. That's not all there is to me, but in order to know more, you have to know me. Ta ta for now!

Fresh Beginnings

Hey all. I decided to start a new blog as a way to put the past behind me. Literally. I am attempting to heal from the pain from the past, and one of the easiest ways to do that is to start over. So here I am. 

The main reason I have started this blog is to give me a place to post my musings, thoughts about life, and God, and also to post stories from my life for those who I love to enjoy. If you don't enjoy them...well, that's up to you I guess. Then just stop reading now dork :P.